Breakdown

I've been so stressed out and overwhelmed lately. It's been a few weeks since I had a day where I could sit back and do nothing. Every day for the past month or so, it seems like I'm always on the go.

This week has been particularly stressful. I made my car payment and I was left with around $100 for groceries for the week. Anything I spend on my sister and I, my dad will subtract from my plane ticket to Brazil.

I ended up splurging about buying myself a couple of Halloween plushies. I then bought myself and my sister some drinks. I bought groceries, put gas in my car, and dropped off my dad's dry cleaning. This morning, I had less than $10 in my checking account. It's been stressful. We have one night for dinner where we plan on going out for Chinese food. Along with the stress of my money, I've been working nearly every day. I've had shin splints, a pain in my wrist, and a swollen foot. Before the wedding, I had a horrible cough. I was never able to see a doctor because of work and the wedding..

Finally, I lost it. I had an emotional break down just before work and during work. I broke down and cried. It felt really good to cry, honestly. I got a lot off my chest and I felt like a huge weight was lifted off my shoulders. Crying is good. Especially when no one can see you. Luckily my breakdown at work didn't last long and it took place in the breakroom.

Half way through my shift, my manger handed me a sticky note with my name, today's date, and a note saying "$40.03" on it. At first I thought it was some sort of sick joke (I had told him I needed money and I was stressed out... I told him before my party showed up). So the money was a huge blessing.

Monday and Tuesday I have time off. Today, I started drawing a little bit. But just a little... I woke up at 10 AM, showered, ran errands, cleaned my room a bit, then worked on pictures until I had my breakdown. Then I had a 6 hour shift.

I also sent my laptop back the other day. I set up my netbook with another monitor so I can still draw digitally and stuff. Hopefully by the beginning of next week, I can show off some new art. I have a couple of ideas in my head already. :)

I have one gift I'm working on and it's all sketched out and ready to be outlined.

I have one trade I'm working on with Marz and it's outlined. I'm just making the lines look nicer.

And that is all.